Thursday

I've had stomach pains the last few days.  My mind likes to jump to dramatic conclusions and determine that it is the onset of cancer.  I hope that I am just being dramatic.  I just don't feel all that well.

Recently, I feel like I am just existing, that I move from day to day as if I am numb.  I wonder if this is normal.  I think that it stems from a lack of satisfaction and sense of instability at work. I am not enjoying or feeling productive. I know that the lack of productivity is a key component to these feelings.  I am much more alive when I am engaged in a project.  I do feel tremendous pressure that I am not sufficiently providing for my family, both financially and emotionally.